It has been a glorious summer, for the most part. Glorious, that is, except for this one nagging task that has been looming over my head. It's something that I have been asked to do time after time after time, but I still haven't done. It's an item on the "to do" list that has yet to make it's way onto the "to-done" list.
And the fact that I haven;'t done it has given me a gnawing, guilty feeling that has damaged my summer attitude.
What a shame.
You see, I have this garage ... actually it's more of a small barn with a garage door. And my wife will gladly tell you, it looks much better with the door closed than open. Much better. (I'm forbidden to post a picture, it's that bad.)
Over the last few years I have accumulated an overabundance of stuff that has been allocated to garage storage; so much stuff that the situation has reached its tipping point. Actually, the tipping point came last year, when I was unable to locate a wrench. A wrench......My KINGDOM FOR A WRENCH!!!
(I digress ...)
The garage has been a sore subject for a long, long time. It has been on my mind so much that I have had moments of guilt, panic, anger (at my own lazy self), hopelessness, etc ... you name it, I have felt that emotion - about my garage. This summer, especially, it has been on my mind. Not because I spend every waking moment thinking about it like a boy thinks about his true love, but because it sits there at the end of the driveway, hour after hour, day after day, week after week, month after month ... mocking me ... giving me the finger ... and damaging what would otherwise be a fantastic summer.
I realize that it's my own fault.
I know without a shadow of doubt that the whole building has to be cleaned and organized. If only I would just DO IT!! I have tried. I've gone out there and looked around. I've made mental notes (and sometimes actual physical notes) about what has to go where and how much stuff has to be sold or given away. I have removed items and organized parts of the garage, and piled the surplus items elsewhere in the garage.
Basically the whole thing is a gigantic mess. It's impossible for me to find anything, and it's a complete embarrassment to my wife.
You see, my wife's personality is a cross between a magnifying glass and a paper clip, whereas mine falls somewhere in the slinky / teddy bear category. She likes things to be properly organized and stored, and I just pile stuff all over the place. I'm not exactly a horder, but I am a piler. I make piles. Of everything. Everywhere. It's what I do. It's a wonder she lets me live.
I think the problem is laziness multiplied by the enormity of the task ... it's just too much to think about and it's having an impact on this old, worn-out brain (*cue sappy violin music*). I am easily overwhelmed, and as a result, I get very little accomplished when faced with large tasks (like cleaning the garage).
So, maybe ... just may - be, if I don't think of it as "cleaning the garage," but instead concentrate on a section at a time, like "the stuff on the floor in the front of the garage," and organize that, and take a break, then go for another part, and a break, and another, and a break, etc ... the whole thing might be organized by this weekend.
Ya think???
Hey - it's worth a try. Anyway, I have to do something about it so I can get it off my mind and enjoy what's left of this glorious summer.
***Special Notice***
Due to the inflammatory nature of some comments to my last blog post, I have taken the post offline. It isn't my intention to draw attention to my "dire circumstances," nor to seemingly plead for pity. I seek only to share what is on my heart and mind. However, the last post seemed to draw unacceptable comments from otherwise reasonable people who have been regular readers of Tenorboy Journal. I truly regret the necessity to remove an item that is protected under the First Amendment, but I must also protect the integrity of my blog, my own intellectual property. Thank you for your understanding.
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